You haven't felt alive until you've been dragged to a bedroom's corner, curled in a ball, all in a bawl, crying, sobbing, until your head aches, your heart hurts and eye's swollen from sorrow.
You haven't felt alive until you wanted to die, jump into the mystery of the unknown, thoughts of silencing yourself, with voices screaming from the inside, desperately trying to not feel desperate.
You haven't felt alive until you had no idea where your next meal was coming from, walking the streets in a daze, eyes glazed, dreams torn to shreds, days spent in bed, waiting to be awaken.
You feel most alive when you're approaching death, ready to die, feeling all sorts of emotions, joy comes and goes, sorrow comes and refuses to leave, choking on your last reason to breath...
When's the last time you felt alive?
I'm doing too much living now, these feelings, I feel them, Lord how I feel them. We need an escape baby. Waiting for the escape baby.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Top 5 Aspects of the American Dream
1. Go to College
This is the beginning of your quest for the American Dream. However, tuition prices are fucking sky high, Charlie Sheen good blow high! So after you enroll and register for classes, your next stop is Sallie Mae or any company that will give you a $20,000 loan for a college that costs $8,000. Refund check ballin'! Why use that extra money for books and school supplies when you can go shopping and buy all the latest fashion trends. Although you'll be in debt for years and years to come, you must get a degree for your dream job!
2. Get a Career
The degree you just purchased will most likely be in a different field then the one you're working in, but hey, you got your job! Now it's probably a job you'll end up hating, co-workers you hate working with and a boss you hate working for! You'll be expected to work 60 hour weeks for a promotion, that will probably end up going to someone else with more "experience". This career may also end abruptly, due to the fact that they can fire you at anytime or lay you off for any reason. However, you need this career in order to pay off that student loan and to put a down payment on your very own brand new home!
3. Home Ownership
Wow! Your very own house, in the suburbs, with the white picket fence and the dog fucking the cat in the living room! Unfortunately, the house may be too expensive to buy out right, meaning you'll be visiting another bank to take out a mortgage that will also be coupled with your student loan debt! Yes, you are living way beyond your means but this is America, don't worry about it, we have credit! Hopefully, you'll be able to pay off your mortgage before you die and leave your kids with an enormous debt, but you do need this house in order to start your very own, first or second, family!
4. Get Married
This is the next step after buying your pretty piece of framed paper, otherwise known as a degree, and starting your 60 hour a week job and having a home! Now it's time to find a girl/guy that you can take home to meet your folks. You must find a spouse that you're willing to spend a lifetime with, although there's a 50% chance that it'll end in divorce. Take the chance and jump the broom! And if you have money and you don't stay together, you'll see that 50% come up again, but this time it'll represent how much the judge forces you to pay your wife! So try picking someone who won't drive you too crazy and make you want to kill them! Picking someone that's somewhat smart and attractive is a huge plus, in order to have kids that don't look like Frankenstein.
5. Have Kids
Procreation! This is your chance to finally have a kid that's not out of wedlock! No baby-mama drama for you Mr. Family Man! There's nothing more important than having a kid and passing on your legacy and the family name. In addition to that, our economy needs you to make babies in order to maintain this bullshit system. They need a constant flow of workers and consumers and also enough kids that want to join the military and go off to some desert and die for rich people's interests! So keep fucking you fuckers!
The American Dream! Wow! What a beautiful, well conceived idea for how to run a country. Chase after over priced material goods and work for a company, making them vasts amounts of money. Fight and die for a country that will throw you in a rundown, dirty, veteran hospital with no health care or leave you homeless on the streets, at least they tell you how proud they are of you and give you all sorts of pretty medals and colored ribbons! Live in a country where everyone hates everyone else--straight people dislike gays, old people dislike young folk, educated people hate uneducated people, blacks hate whites, Americans hate immigrants, Iphone users hate Android users and the like. So keep dreaming, because they're companies that are making good amounts of money from it!
This is the beginning of your quest for the American Dream. However, tuition prices are fucking sky high, Charlie Sheen good blow high! So after you enroll and register for classes, your next stop is Sallie Mae or any company that will give you a $20,000 loan for a college that costs $8,000. Refund check ballin'! Why use that extra money for books and school supplies when you can go shopping and buy all the latest fashion trends. Although you'll be in debt for years and years to come, you must get a degree for your dream job!
2. Get a Career
The degree you just purchased will most likely be in a different field then the one you're working in, but hey, you got your job! Now it's probably a job you'll end up hating, co-workers you hate working with and a boss you hate working for! You'll be expected to work 60 hour weeks for a promotion, that will probably end up going to someone else with more "experience". This career may also end abruptly, due to the fact that they can fire you at anytime or lay you off for any reason. However, you need this career in order to pay off that student loan and to put a down payment on your very own brand new home!
3. Home Ownership
Wow! Your very own house, in the suburbs, with the white picket fence and the dog fucking the cat in the living room! Unfortunately, the house may be too expensive to buy out right, meaning you'll be visiting another bank to take out a mortgage that will also be coupled with your student loan debt! Yes, you are living way beyond your means but this is America, don't worry about it, we have credit! Hopefully, you'll be able to pay off your mortgage before you die and leave your kids with an enormous debt, but you do need this house in order to start your very own, first or second, family!
4. Get Married
This is the next step after buying your pretty piece of framed paper, otherwise known as a degree, and starting your 60 hour a week job and having a home! Now it's time to find a girl/guy that you can take home to meet your folks. You must find a spouse that you're willing to spend a lifetime with, although there's a 50% chance that it'll end in divorce. Take the chance and jump the broom! And if you have money and you don't stay together, you'll see that 50% come up again, but this time it'll represent how much the judge forces you to pay your wife! So try picking someone who won't drive you too crazy and make you want to kill them! Picking someone that's somewhat smart and attractive is a huge plus, in order to have kids that don't look like Frankenstein.
5. Have Kids
Procreation! This is your chance to finally have a kid that's not out of wedlock! No baby-mama drama for you Mr. Family Man! There's nothing more important than having a kid and passing on your legacy and the family name. In addition to that, our economy needs you to make babies in order to maintain this bullshit system. They need a constant flow of workers and consumers and also enough kids that want to join the military and go off to some desert and die for rich people's interests! So keep fucking you fuckers!
The American Dream! Wow! What a beautiful, well conceived idea for how to run a country. Chase after over priced material goods and work for a company, making them vasts amounts of money. Fight and die for a country that will throw you in a rundown, dirty, veteran hospital with no health care or leave you homeless on the streets, at least they tell you how proud they are of you and give you all sorts of pretty medals and colored ribbons! Live in a country where everyone hates everyone else--straight people dislike gays, old people dislike young folk, educated people hate uneducated people, blacks hate whites, Americans hate immigrants, Iphone users hate Android users and the like. So keep dreaming, because they're companies that are making good amounts of money from it!
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Top 5 Black People Rules
Let me be clear, people of all races also actively engage in these rules; black people just tend to abide by these rules more often than not. These rules aren't taught, but automatically understood at black birth and accepted as a way of life. I will admit that some of these rules are ridiculous and weird, but nonetheless, these are the rules. Some of us grown black folk realize that these rules are child's play and choose to disregard them. Disregarding these rules, however, are sure to get negative attention drawn your way and accused of not really being black!
P.S. Touching a black person's radio is a law not a rule!
P.S. Touching a black person's radio is a law not a rule!
Communication
Black people will say hello but WILL NOT always be the first person to do so, You may have heard a black person say something like, "Ohh, they gonna act like they don't see me." Meaning they're growing tired of saying good morning to said person, especially because they just walked by and didn't speak and were aware of the black person's presence. I'll tell non-black reader's a secret...we aren't as angry as television make us out to be! I was taught to say hello when entering a room, especially entering a person's home.But if we see you in the streets and was the first to speak at least five times, you can bet you get the silent treatment on the sixth.
Dining
If you're black, you're expected to eat certain foods, colloquially called "soul food". Soul Food includes, but is not limited to: fried chicken, greens, macaroni and cheese, potato salad and sweet potato pie, just to name a few. I didn't eat many of these items growing up and was severely teased by my great grandmother's boy toys! Can you imagine having a 73 year-old man screaming at you from across the dinner table phrases such as, "Are you black boy? You bets eat boy!" I would then kick his cane to the ground so he couldn't catch me if I had to run for dear life. All of this heavy food is then consumed on paper plates. Black people use paper plates for everything. While white people's pets eat out of stainless steal dog bowls with their names etched on the side, our dog eats table food off a paper plate! Then we have the audacity to wonder why the dog has high blood pressure! Chile please.
Famous Names
If you are famous and played well known character on a television show, black people will forever call you by your character name! When Kramer was in the news for calling black people all types of niggas, white people said Michael Richards was wrong while black people were saying, "Fuck Kramer" not Michael Richards, like Kramer is a real person. Quick black people...here's a quiz: What's Tisha Campbell's name on "My Wife and Kid's?" If you guessed Gina you're wrong and if you didn't know Gina's name from Martin was Tisha Campbell, you're the reason why this is a rule. The same goes for Al Bundy, Jallel White as Urkel, Mr. Cooper and a thousand other people.This is especially true if you're a rapper!
Free Him/Her
If you're black and a family member, friend or celebrity idol gets arrested, it's your duty to wear a Free So & So tee shirt with a matching hat. Nowadays people write it on their Facebook or Twitter status updates.."Fuck the cops shit jus got real Free Tony" or Free Weezy, Free T.I, who kept going back to jail, so at least you got to wear the shirt more than once. Then we have the the infamous Free Murda Mac! Maybe it's me, but if your friend's name is Murda Mac, Murda Mizz or Murder Something , maybe his ass should be in prison, especially if he's known to murder people like his name implies. Black people should also stop using these incriminating nicknames. "This is my main man Stick-Up." I wonder what he does for a living? Or you have guys name Smoke with red eyes, that's always hungry and probably has 5 bags of weed on him 24/7. Try coming up with names that don't suggest anything like the mafia.
Church Clothes
Black people are too funny. For some strange reason, my people call business attire church clothes, as if people don't wear suits anywhere else and if you've ever called dress socks, church socks then your guilty as well. Actually, I believe this to be the reason; people who live in low income areas have jobs where they must wear uniforms and do the manual labor as opposed to wearing a suit and tie and make decisions. So when people are seen wearing slacks and a button-up shirt, it's better to assume that they're going to church and not to court, although they may be dressed for a job interview. Thinking about it now, it actually is kind of a disheartening idea but reality nonetheless.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Music: My Finds
I recently stumbled upon two dope artists! This blog is to highlight the artists Dan Black and Aloe Blacc. Be prepared for an interesting take on a Biggie song and a music video with a very talented kid dancer...enjoy!
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Truth in a Nursery Rhyme
Row, row, row your boat
gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
life is but a dream.
This simple nursery rhyme can actually serve as a great mantra to live by. This is my interpretation of the rhyme!
The boat symbolizes one's self and the rowing, which takes skill and practice, can be interpreted as the hard work needed to keep one's self afloat. This can be hard work in terms of making money to survive or hard work needed to perfect your craft and chase after your dreams!
"Gently down the stream" can be linked to the slow and steady movement of time, which takes you from one life experience to the next; through the life cycle of baby, child, man and human death.
It's also noted to row merrily. This is a reminder not to take life too seriously, accept all challenges and experiences with a smile and lightheartedness. It's important to keep a cheerful spirit because LIFE IS BUT A DREAM! The world consists of many illusions that we have been taught to accept as reality. Our waking reality is akin to a sleeping dream. When we dream, our physical senses still work; we see, hear, and touch things even though there isn't any "real" external stimulus. So here's the question...Is what we experience in wakefulness really there the way we experience it?
"Once upon a time, I, Chuang Chou, dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was Chou. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man." - Zhuangzi
We also can feel regular human emotions while asleep dreaming. We can be happy, scared or feel any other number of emotions; only when we awake do we feel relieved because we know that the experience of our dream wasn't "real". This can also be used when contemplating the many stresses of life such as the need for money, having responsibilities, work, jobs, kids, family, etc. These all can make one feel burnt out and stressed out. However, when we "awake" we see these things are not reality, but merely tools we have to interact with this physical life.
It's like that scene in The Matrix when Morpheus asks Neo what he thinks constitutes reality. Morpheus says, "If reality is the things you can see, touch, smell and hear then reality is nothing more than electrical signals interpreted by your brain." Conversely, our senses only give us a limited grasp of the world around us. So remember to have fun, live freely and never forget that life is only a dream!
gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
life is but a dream.
This simple nursery rhyme can actually serve as a great mantra to live by. This is my interpretation of the rhyme!
The boat symbolizes one's self and the rowing, which takes skill and practice, can be interpreted as the hard work needed to keep one's self afloat. This can be hard work in terms of making money to survive or hard work needed to perfect your craft and chase after your dreams!
"Gently down the stream" can be linked to the slow and steady movement of time, which takes you from one life experience to the next; through the life cycle of baby, child, man and human death.
It's also noted to row merrily. This is a reminder not to take life too seriously, accept all challenges and experiences with a smile and lightheartedness. It's important to keep a cheerful spirit because LIFE IS BUT A DREAM! The world consists of many illusions that we have been taught to accept as reality. Our waking reality is akin to a sleeping dream. When we dream, our physical senses still work; we see, hear, and touch things even though there isn't any "real" external stimulus. So here's the question...Is what we experience in wakefulness really there the way we experience it?
"Once upon a time, I, Chuang Chou, dreamt I was a butterfly, fluttering hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly. I was conscious only of my happiness as a butterfly, unaware that I was Chou. Soon I awaked, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly, dreaming I am a man." - Zhuangzi
We also can feel regular human emotions while asleep dreaming. We can be happy, scared or feel any other number of emotions; only when we awake do we feel relieved because we know that the experience of our dream wasn't "real". This can also be used when contemplating the many stresses of life such as the need for money, having responsibilities, work, jobs, kids, family, etc. These all can make one feel burnt out and stressed out. However, when we "awake" we see these things are not reality, but merely tools we have to interact with this physical life.
It's like that scene in The Matrix when Morpheus asks Neo what he thinks constitutes reality. Morpheus says, "If reality is the things you can see, touch, smell and hear then reality is nothing more than electrical signals interpreted by your brain." Conversely, our senses only give us a limited grasp of the world around us. So remember to have fun, live freely and never forget that life is only a dream!
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